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:iconhigh-class-trash:High-Class-Trash posted a status
Kinda need some advice:

How do you guys deal with separating from your animals?
I have so much anxiety thinking about going to uni and not being with Haru and everytime I have to even think about it I break down in tears, I don't think I can be away fro him for 3 years he's too important to me and it's really making me reconsider if I evcen wanna go to uni at this point which is putting a lot of strain with my family relationships at the minute because they don't understand why he's so important to me that i'd want to 'throw away my future'  ( their words) for him

and I just
I really don't know what to do .. No one i've asked seems to understand or have an answer ..

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CynicArcane Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Aw this must be really difficult. Although I can't say I've experienced separation anxiety as much as you have with pets, I can understand where you're coming from. And I'm not a councilor so I can't really tell you what to do, but I can try to help and encourage you to go to uni because it's so important to your future. Haru will always be there when you get back home and visit. 
I often miss my babs when we go on vacation and I find it hard to sleep without my fluffy bab with me ;-; But I know they'll be home waiting for me. (even if they don't show that they missed me I know they did haha)
Just understand that haru will also miss you and if he could talk he would probably skype you and tell you it'll be alright
I hope the best for you and your decision, and I'm always here if you need someone to talk to ;u; 
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High-Class-Trash Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry this is late, I don't want you to think i've purposely ignored it because i dont appreciate it, cause i do, so much, I just keep getting myself worked up and upset about the subject the more I think about it enough to reply ;-; 
That and Everytime I try to write something out I just end up writing pages upon pages on why he's the single most important thing in my life but ..thats not much of a reply either, it'd just take us full circle .

I appreciate what you said though, I know it's not an easy thing to just give an answer to ya know.

I've built up this bond with haru to a point I come to rely on him, I know no matter what happens I can go home and he's just there or if i cant make myself motivated to get up and get out of bed I know I have to cause i need to take care of him and make sure he's okay. I mean .. he's an asshole and 9/10 unless it's night time or i have food, wants nothing to do with me but I've just grown accustomed to having him around and having him cuddle up to me when no one is around. (only to run away the second anyone comes to visit cause he refuses to be seen being the single best boi in the world)
Maybe that's what makes it worse for me cause only I get to see that side of him. ;-;

I know he'll be there but..I feel like i could never visit enough. It's too far away for me to be able to just visit whenever;-;
I'm just ..so scared about failing him ..I always feel like if i cant be there or take care of him then i've failed . He's seen a house full of people to talk to at all times to ..2 moved out ..then another 2 he was close with left, to i had to leave and 2 had to come back to take care of him..back to just me, and you can see it when my mom visits how much he misses her cause he instantly runs to her and wants affection (which is usually odd for him) and I just worry he feels like if i leave again ..after it being just him and I for over a year ..that i've abandoned him and maybe that's an over reaction but he honestly means so much that in my head thats a viable feeling he could go through and something I don't ever want him to experience.

idk Im just worried cause when I get stressed I know I have him and him just being in the room has been such a good way of coping for me but what do I do when I don't have that option? ya'know. ;-;

I'm not gonna keep rambling to you but I do really appreciate the advise and I'll just have to really take everything in and think about it more ;-; 
-hugs-
 
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