High-Class-Trash

<sup>It's been a while since I wrote one of these ....a while longer since I uploaded any art and I kinda wanted to jump on and just explain I guess.

I wish I was like all these other artists saying 'leaving DA BUT im JUST moving to another site'
but ..even when my Instagram is more active than this account, that's still dead too, so ..I just cant say that.

Truth is, i've just ...fallen out of love with what I do.
When I got into art I was in a really rough patch and it was my way of coping, my way of venting, and my way of expressing what was going on in my head through the trials and tribulations of navigating a mental health disorder and a traumatic past, but over the years i've learnt.. coping mechanisms dont always work, art just doesn't help me like it did anymore, I don't feel that passion to do something with it when it seems like a losing battle trying to keep up with everyone else around me in the community.

I've never been that creative, or particularly good at what I do, not like I wanted to be and it just got tiring.
I couldn't produce for people things I wanted, things I felt they deserved and it ate away at me.

I still doodle sometimes...but I dont know the last time I finished anything without starting again, or scrapping it...or just saving it and forgetting about it and never having the desire to come back.

I know this seems like more vent than anything, im a lil wonky rn
but 
I guess, idk
Maybe one day i'll do something but ...this platform is likely going to be a lost cause and I probably wont really post again.
I don't know but , that's where I am right now.

I dont like leaving things on a blank note so I wanted to explain best I could.

I'll try to post on my instagram, and I'll be online everyday but ..in terms of artwork, it will be infrequent at best ..

Thank you,

Larka</sup>

Hey guys,
it's been a whlie, not only since I've written one of these bad boys but since i've really been around here and I didnt intend to be as distant as I am.
I want to tell you guys that it's because my laptop is still broken and i've only just managed to get another one (it's being delivered friday).
I wanna tell you guys it's because University os just hectic and if it's not one thing its another,
but none of that is the whole truth of the matter.
Honestly,
I've just been losing motivation to draw.
I wish I could start this account again.
I have so few deviations up at this point cause I keep deleting them but I wanna get rid of more.
I don't know what's wrong or if art for me, isn't the same as it was previously so I don't really know where this leaves me over all but I dont WANT to stop or give up, I just wish I could do more, produce more, but the loves just not there anymore.

When I get my laptop (Even though it's strictly for Uni work and lectures) I will put sai on and I WILL finish the trades I promised back in October, I'm so sorry that i've left you both in the dark and I hope you dont think Ill of me for it, you both deserve more than I can give right now and I don't want to do anything that's not got my heart and soul in it but it will be done!

Sorry again for my absence 
I do love you all
thank you for sticking around 

Larka~

Hey guys, been a while since I wrote one of these
BUT
it's never been a secret that i'm not the most engaging with my audience I guess but I want to change that!
I want you guys to really WANT to follow me on here, to be excited by my content and I want to hear your thoughts on what you would like to see from me or my work.
what would make you more excited about me or my work?

be it;
actual consistent uploads
a certain genre fufilled
contests (tho with my small Audience participation is unlikely)
developing characters and backstories more
ANYTHING!
anything
I can do for you
anything you want to see from me

I'm all ears and open to suggestions cause You guys mean a lot to me and I want to make you as happy as I can

Thank you

Larka

Okay so I've wanted to throw this out there for a while but it just felt too permanent if I actually addressed it. ( I have issues letting go of things no matter how small)
This Is gonna be worded a LOT more seriously than it is ..just when I write things my brain goes on auto pilot and ..well ..I like to feel I'm good at writting serious stuff. Just ..bare with me please.


Okay so, not sure where to start but I guess with.. I've not really been feeling my work recently, more specifically the type of art. This means my canine art. I love drawing canines, but maybe not in the same way I used to. The side of the stange coloured dog OCs to me are becoming a little boring and tiresome.

Now I'm not sure where this really puts me with the kind of work I'm going to produce in the future. ( I'm not that great at humanoid art and will not post anything I'm not happy with) That will have to be a wait and see kind of situation. I likely won't scrap the odd canine pieces completely but I am planning on slowing down those pieces a lot .

Now as it stands for existing canine OC's I have, I'm not quite sure about their future. I've drifted from most of them anyway and never drew them much more than a reference, they never had stories, bios ect.. I never did anything with them so the lack of love towards them probably won't change much to me, they'll remain to be unimportant and their references will likely to be taken down.. ( A recent update on this though cause I wrote this out a while back I just wanted to give it some time, My character 'Mika', he was part of a pair shared with Kouvinxx, after a conversation with them Mika will still live, They will be his primary owner, is free to re-design and do with whatever they wish. (( Just lowkey want him to always be the soft boi he is )) They said We'll just co-own that one character but from here on Mika is primarily theirs I guess)

Relevant characters to me, mainly Larka and Aiden tell a different stories.  Aiden will remain as he is, He will stay a canine/demon thing .. mainly because of the relevance in my life and the roll that form actually plays in my life. 

larka though ...I am trying to scrap larka's canine form completely .. I've been unattached to it for a long time as well as not liking her design anyway. I have a pretty hard time letting go of things so it'll probably be slow for me though but that's all ultimetely the plan here.

She as a character will stay but have some updates to personality and design. Due to me being more confident in myself as a person I have less I want to hide behind, I don't need to make myself out to be someone i'm not as much so ..she's hopefully going to adapt along side me . Bus as of now, she will stay as she's always been just lacking a canine version.

I guess that's all? I think i've covered all the basis and I just hope people are patient with me whilst I work on creating my own style for my human work 

thanks 

Larka-lou  

Hey guys, I'm currently trying to rehome these 2 characters
I spent a fair bit of time trying to re-draw the first one so it was presentable to sell so I'm gonna be a little sad if she doesn't have a home.
They're currenty up as an OTA cause I'd like something? but Just kinda want someone who'll love them and use them ;-;

sta.sh/2p7qq1s93zo here they are, I'm looking through my characters and seeing if anymore can be added but i'll update it if that happens 

please check them out.

Thanks guys 

~larka-lou